First, the #1 reason I haven't been writing is this....
This precious lil guy arrived in our family on February 1st, 2013. His name is Jack Miles Walker and he is an angel. I didn't know I could fall in love so many times...first with my husband and then with Grahm and now again with Jack. My life is abundant and full. :) Jack is such a sweet baby. He is full of smiles and babbles and just lights up my days. He is 4 months now so here are a few more recent pictures....
These 2 are definitely the light of my life. :) Love them to pieces.
So yeah, I've had my hands full taking care of 2 boys...a 2 yr old and a newborn! It is no an easy task, that's for sure. And the reality is that I rarely have time to sit down at the computer and do much of anything, let alone write on the blog. So I'm not sure when or if I'll get back to writing on here. I don't want anything "screen-related" to take up the time I should be spending with my boys. So I've decided not to put any pressure on myself to write because I'd rather be spending time with them because this time is so short I don't want them to just remember me sitting in front of a computer! I love writing, but I love my boys and they'll grow up and this stage will eventually be over. So I'm just living in the moment God's got me in right now. (Yes, that is a continual learning process for me though! Lest you think I'm some super mom who just absolutely loves staying home full time and taking care of 2 very little guys and cleaning up messes, doing naps, changing diapers, fixing meals and doing it all over again. I do love raising them but I won't lie and say there aren't days that I can't wait for this stage to pass quickly! :) I just have to remind myself that I will eventually miss these exhausting days. :) )
Anyways...so as far as the adoption goes, I suppose I should update on that as well. Unfortunately our wait is going to be quite a bit longer than we expected. As of right now our agency doesn't think we'll be getting a referral until maybe late fall of this year or later. But that's just a guess, there are really no definites in this process. Our hearts were pretty broken by that news because we've been waiting so long to bring our little one home (It will be 2 years this fall). No pregnancy ever lasts that long!! This is one stinking long "pregnancy"!! :) We were hoping to have our Baby E home by Christmas but it doesn't look like that will be happening. It is definitely hard to see referrals go out and families go to meet their little ones knowing that that would've been us and wishing that it was. But we are so thankful for our little miracle in Jack and we know that God knows our hearts and knows what is best. So we will continue to trust in God and know that He has it all worked out in His sovereign plan and He knows exactly who our little baby is and when he/she will come home. In the meantime we'll wait
If I find a free moment here and there I may try and update with some pictures of what's going on in our lives just so I can keep a record for our own family but I doubt that writing will enter back into the picture for a while. And I may not...who knows! :) I like the freedom of not feeling pressure to write and keep up. So we'll see.
Hope you are all doing well....loving much and living big! :)